Intimacy With God In A Martha World

 I imagine that if I were in Eden right now, this is how my day would look like:

Wake up, not sure if there would be sleeping though, unless we are creating more Eves and of course this wouldn't apply to me cause I'm already an Eve😂😂 Anyway, whatever the case, every moment of my day and night would be spent with God. I don't think I'd wait for Him to come by at the cool of the day, I'd go for Him. Who wouldn't want to be forever full of joy and immense peace having not to worry about a thing?

Enough with the day dreaming! How do I achieve the same thing in such a busy world? There is work to think of, what clothes I'm gonna put on tomorrow, what will I eat, I have a family to take care of, I need to be there for a friend and have you forgotten that I'm a mother of a two month old baby who is totally dependent on me??!! It's alooot, I know.

So, what now? How do I still purse God and still ensure that He has me completely? It's hard, I know, but have you ever tried to figure out why? Most of the time it's because we try to do things on our own and not receive the grace of God that He freely gives.

This is it, if you are like me, sometime we become excited and over-ambitious with the idea of pursuing intimacy with God; we come up with a plan of how we'll study the Word, pray at certain hours, reach out to those around us, in short, we want to do everything all at the same time and this is overwhelming and exhausting! 

Did you know that instead of being good at reading and studying scriptures, outreaching and all, The Lord desires us to  BECOME (just like Mary, who just wanted to sit at the Lord's feet and listen). You see, all these things we try to do in order to please God, most of the times is really for us...how will I prove to those around me that I am a good Christian? And sometime we even make a good prayer like, "when people see me, let them see you" but really do you see Him in you?

This is what I mean; before you speak a word or do something and people get to see Christ in you, what really happened in your thoughts and everything else that people get to see? Did you see Christ in you?

If you ever didn't have to be used by God for anything at all in the body of Christ, would you still seek Him? Or does it matter so bad that people take note of your spiritual growth for it to count?

If you see yourself here, I am guilty too and in need of the Holy Spirit to create in me a clean heart and renew a right spirit within me. Until our greatest passion is the pursuit of God and intimacy with Him just to please Him and live in His purpose, until it stops being about everyone else but Him, we still need and require the Holy Spirit to work on us and search our motives.

The good news is that that's where He specializes!

PRAYER:

Dear Lord,

Search me and know me! I desire that everything I do be all about you, that pursuing an intimate relationship with you be the drive that keeps me running after you with passion. May it matter to me what you say and think of me than any other thing.

I want to know you Lord and the power that brought you back to life in resurrection. 🎶Give me one pure and holy passion, give me one magnificent objection, give me one glorious ambition for my life; TO KNOW AND FOLLOW HARD AFTER YOU🎶

Amen!